Reading my poem brought these thoughts...

We all go through struggles in life and whenever we believe we are strong the devil will find whatever our weakness is and attempt to use it to destroy us. The devil made an attack on our family and almost succeeded in destroying everything I held dear. I had finally released my own past and old hurts and had grown stronger in Him so the devil used this to invoke anger at God for not protecting us or stopping it and attempted to prove to me that I just wasn't valuable to God. The fog and bitterness I was in for a time because of the pain was almost unbearable but being a good example for my kids and others around me was my driving force to not give in and not give up. The teachings I heard in the past and during this time run through my mind over and over again and helped me to forgive and strengthened my resolve to continue the fight to hold my family together, my heart would not be whole without them. God allowed the tough times to make me stronger, show me what was important in life and so helped me better understand what others go through so that someday I may help them through the fog too. I'm no longer merely getting through day to day but I am living and I know without a doubt I am valuable to God and Christ is my strength. So the words of the poem I wrote ring just as true now as the day I wrote them.

There's Hope
Written January 3, 2012 by: Helena
I was a shell of a person I was struggling to cope
But as I grew closer Lord, you showed me there’s hope
I tried so long to do it on my own, I struggled to be strong
The fumbling and stumbling was allowed to show me I was doing it all wrong
All I had to do was turn it all over to you and let it all go
Now I have more peace than I ever thought I’d know
Drawing closer to you brought me such joy
I will remain alert and not fall for Satan’s ploy
Satan promises so many things that will never be true
It robs us of all hope and joy in all that we do
But Jesus you are a faithful, loving and kind friend
You will forever be with us with a love that does not end
Help me to help others so through you I can show them the way
That through your salvation and closeness to you we are conquerors every day