From our beginnings we have not wanted to be wrong or to admit fault for our part in things or our decisions. Whether it be our not wanting to fall out of favor or our pride we will often find something or someone else to point the finger in attempt to displace blame in one way or another. When God confronted Adam He knew what had been done but He gave Adam the chance to confess, instead Adam defensively pointed the finger at Eve saying she gave him the fruit to eat. (And the man said, The woman whom thou gavest to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I did eat. Genesis 3:12) Now I'd imagine Adam knew the garden well and he knew exactly where the fruit came from but he choose to eat it anyway and instead of owning up to his decision he was almost blaming God for giving him the woman Eve because she gave him the fruit. Eve did the same thing by blaming the serpent. (And the Lord God said unto the woman, What is this that thou hast done? And the woman said, The serpent beguiled me, and I did eat. Genesis 3:13) While it's true she was deceived to think it really wouldn't be so bad she ultimately was disobedient to God and made the choice to eat the fruit instead of calling upon God and standing strong. Thus the beginning of the "blame game" and the entrance of sin into humanity. God knew what they had done and as a result of their choices consequences were to be faced. If you read Genesis 3 you will see the punishment still came as a result of their choices both for Adam & Eve and the beguiling serpent. We like to say well if he/she hadn't done this I wouldn't have done that or if he/she had done this I would have been better and done this. What it really boils down to is choices and the decisions we make. Clearly the Bible tells us, "Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men. Romans 12:17", so we deceive ourselves when we try to convince ourselves it's alright to hurt someone that hurt us. Whatever it is we think we are getting away with or justifying in our own mind will be answered for one day. (For it is written, As I live, saith the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God. So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God. Romans 14:11-12) God will know what our decisions were and what we refused to confess, there will be no excuses to be made or shifting of blame when we are standing in judgment before Him. We have the chance now to honestly look at our lives and see the results of our choices and where we were wrong and fell short of God's glory. Don't think you have done no wrong, you are human and I am human we are imperfect and only when Christ is living through us are we closer to being perfect but we still fall and fail. All have sinned, "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; Romans 3:23", last I checked all means every single one of us. We can try to find excuses for what we did or did not do and in our minds denial can be pretty powerful but it still doesn't change the error of our ways and the decisions we have made. Regardless of where we've been along our life's journey, the decisions we have made and what we have or haven't done if we will take a good personal inventory and confess to God, that's what He is asking of us. "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9"
Sometimes it almost surprises me when I see someone I would closely consider an enemy hurting and I feel bad for them. The human flesh in me at times wants them to hurt as bad as they have hurt me but then compassion and a little empathy will peak through because they too have had their share of hurts. We all have painful situations we face and often those are results of choices we have made but I don't enjoy seeing anyone struggle. Maybe this is an area of growth and I'm learning as the Bible says to love my enemies, I'm not perfect at it by any means and sometimes it's a daily battle. Still trying to get to where I can pray for them but I know it's something I should do, I believe ultimately it will bring me some peace through being obedient to God
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; (Matthew 5:44 KJV)
Dear Lord, I come to you today confessing my sins and asking your forgiveness. I am claiming your word "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9 KJV)" In the storms of my life I have often lost my focus and became focused on the situation instead of on you. I have forgotten that even during the most intense and painful situations you have been right beside me often carrying me when I could go no further. Though at times I've misunderstood and been angry and hurt because I feared I was left unprotected I am so grateful you see the big picture and know what greater good the trials will work in my life. Forgive me for too often being a poor example of your grace when I have taken matters into my own hands and hastily have attempted to obtain the vengeance against those that have wronged me. I ask that you extend your grace and forgiveness to those individuals as well as myself. Where your salvation has not been received I pray I did not hinder them from one day coming to know the power of your saving grace and I pray they find forgiveness in their heart for me one day. Forgive me Lord for stubbornly holding onto the hurts, irritations, bitterness and unforgiveness instead of fully releasing them to you. I have hindered you from working through my life and on my life and I ask you to take complete control of every aspect that has been hindered. I ask for your strength to get me through the challenging times, ask you to help me love as you love, and to provide your healing of my heart and the hearts of those I have hurt. Please help me to view others how you view them. I have many flaws and am so thankful you love me despite them and you have not given up on working on me. Please forgive me and help me, I am nothing without you. I love you Lord and I give every aspect of my life over to you, I am your child and need your guidance today and everyday. Thank you for all you have done and all that you are going to do in my life. I ask all these things in Jesus name. Amen
I'm a wife of 20 years to a husband that consistently chooses to love me despite my flaws and a mother of 3 wonderful, loving and giving children. I have 6 babies waiting for me up in Heaven. I'm imperfect, often broken and learning; you will see many aspects of what makes me the person I am throughout this blog. You will find no condemnation from me. I have my fair share of problems and battles, I win some and lose some but by God's grace I'm continuing in the good fight. I'm attempting to live life authentically and I enjoy the many blessings God has given both in happiness and pain. I don't have any formal education in Biblical Studies and I don't claim to be an expert. I'm just sharing experiences and lessons I am learning or trying to learn as I go through life.