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October

10/29/2019

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Please read.🍁🦋♾ “National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month occurs every October. During the entire month, we take time to honor and remember those who have lost a child during pregnancy or lost a child in infancy.”
I didn’t get these posted before bed. Thank you to my stealthy “photo spamming photographer” for taking pictures while we were just out and about😉😘.
October has always been a difficult month for me and I never could explain it well enough to anyone. I’ve always been a listener and as I’ve gotten older I can better communicate much of my experiences, both past and present, to those that are willing and want to hear the truth. I’ve known love and I’ve known loss, pure happiness and absolute destruction, I’ve looked forward to my tomorrows and back at many pasts, I’ve both laughed and cried with every fiber of my being. One thing I know is this life is not the end, nothing stays the same, we learn, we transform and time here on earth is only an illusion. Eternity means something different to everyone but for me ever since I was just a young child I’ve known a peace that comes amidst the storm, I’ve known JOY unspeakable and I’ve known without a doubt time is but an illusion.
Love, real love, never ever dies. Memories carry us through and keep our love alive. Our 4 babies, extended family, and friends already gone from us in body... We remember, I visit you in my dreams, I love you completely and I’ll see you in just a blink. 💗♾
If you’re struggling with everyday life or loss please be gentle with yourself and nurture yourself by ensuring you take care of your body, mind & soul. Love your family and cherish every moment of every moment; make today the best you can make of it and get back up knowing tomorrow is a new day and you can start again.
If everything is going well in your life please remember to have compassion for others. No matter what you see of their struggle and how tough you think it may or may not be be for them, you don’t really know until you’ve lived it. Remember and understand that your perception will always be different than another person’s point of view. Pain, loss, emotions and decisions will always be experienced differently both in length of time and how deeply it holds. Just listen, let be, pray, forgive if you need, be patient and love.
Much love to and for you all!!💗🌝🌞💫🌈🦋

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Always on my mind

10/16/2019

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    Authentic Helena

    I'm a wife of 20 years to a husband that consistently chooses to love me despite my flaws and a mother of 3 wonderful, loving and giving children. I have 6 babies waiting for me up in Heaven.  I'm imperfect, often broken and learning; you will see many aspects of what makes me the person I am throughout this blog. You will find no condemnation from me.  I have my fair share of problems and battles, I win some and lose some but by God's grace I'm continuing in the good fight. I'm attempting to live life authentically and I enjoy the many blessings God has given both in happiness and pain.  I don't have any formal education in Biblical Studies and I don't claim to be an expert.  I'm just sharing experiences and lessons I am learning or trying to learn as I go through life.

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  • Thoughts/Studies
  • My Losses
    • Why It’s Not “Just a Miscarriage”
    • Ean Rigel (Blog)
    • Riley Ember (Blog)
    • Pictures (ONLY CLICK TABS IF YOU WANT TO SEE THEM. *Disclaimer: Images may be disturbing for some) >
      • Pictures of Ean. He was not full term, he was 13w2d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing.
      • Pictures of Riley. He was 8w4d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing, and he was delivered at 12 weeks.
  • Never Forgotten Babies
  • Praying For You
    • Where are you going when you die?