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If only people knew...

6/3/2018

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I’m physically unwell today, I’m so very hurt, broken and distraught. I’m so angry, ANGRY that time my children could have had with their Granny was stolen by those that claimed to “love” them. “They love our children”, yet they purposely push them away and said they didn’t even want to hear their names spoken, this is love? Direct quotes from our children: “They never treated us very good anyway and were nicer to strangers.”, “I just don’t understand, I’m standing there and I want so bad to ask for a hug while she’s hugging everyone else but she didn’t even say hi to me.”, “I sometimes stay awake at night not being able to sleep thinking to myself if I was the problem, if I was the one that caused my family to hate each other, if I could just disappear and see if that would work, almost every time it brings me to tears.” Finally after many years my kids may understand it’s not their fault but they cannot comprehend why they aren’t loved by family and I pray they heal. My heart is shattered knowing that they know and feel this and we have explained it was an issue between adults they were at no fault. These people made it difficult for our kids to have time with their Granny while trying to say they weren’t and placed the blame away from themselves saying it was a scheduling problem with the grandparents. My kids missed time with a Granny they loved and cherished! OUR kids were robbed and time can never be replaced!!
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  • Thoughts/Studies
  • My Losses
    • Why It’s Not “Just a Miscarriage”
    • Ean Rigel (Blog)
    • Riley Ember (Blog)
    • Pictures (ONLY CLICK TABS IF YOU WANT TO SEE THEM. *Disclaimer: Images may be disturbing for some) >
      • Pictures of Ean. He was not full term, he was 13w2d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing.
      • Pictures of Riley. He was 8w4d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing, and he was delivered at 12 weeks.
  • Never Forgotten Babies
  • Praying For You
    • Where are you going when you die?