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Had a bad migraine today and had to take headache medicine 3 times. I also tried eating, drinking more water, used oils, ice on my head and neck and arnica gel. I threw up, it's been a while since I've had a migraine bad enough to make me vomit most of the time they just make me feel like I will. yuck yuck yuck
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Definitely looking good. My luteal phase is usually 12 days. I emailed the Dr's office to see when they want me to come in to get levels checked the nurse said it looked like my temperature spiked on the 14th so come in on the 21st.     Lines have gotten darker. I'm so happy and want to tell the world but also cautious because it's still so early. It's hard after losing Ean and now Granny too.   After testing daily since 6 days past ovulation we can see very faint lines. Tried to get pictures in multiple lighting because they are hard to see on camera. I'm slightly in disbelief because getting pregnant was never so easy for me before but I'm thankful for this answer to prayer.  I’m so sad. Right now, everything is in an unknown territory. We lost Ean and I delivered him October 30th. Through thought and prayer, we decided we were ready to start trying again so this month we gave it a good effort. I’m 9dpo (days past ovulation) and feeling at odds about possible pregnancy. I was so excited to try again and even had some hope. Unfortunately, at 2dpo my husband’s mom (Granny) died suddenly from a heart attack. At first, I thought oh this is horrible timing and wished that maybe we had continued waiting instead. Eventually I thought what better way to remember her if I were to be pregnant because I’d be due in October, her birthday was also in October. I’ve had the hormonal symptoms feeling pregnant because of the progesterone I’m on but of course all the early pregnancy tests so far have come back stark white negative. All the holding it under different lights running around looking in different rooms don’t change the result to show that line I’m able to imagine because I know where it should be. The thing is, now I’m almost terrified of being pregnant. Closer monitoring during pregnancy because of losing Ean would mean I’d need some help with the kids while I make that long drive to the doctor’s office however often it’ll need to be. I didn’t ask for help often but when I needed it Granny was always there and because I’m not one to feel comfortable asking she was the only one we could count on for help. It feels so alone like now our little family is on its own little island.
Today was Granny's funeral (husband's mom), she passed suddenly from a heart attack February 5th. I have so many emotions I can't even begin to explain them. Last night I decided I wanted to wear purple because it was her favorite color and I couldn't find the shirt I was looking for anywhere so I ended up sitting on the floor of our laundry room bawling my eyes out leaving everyone to wonder if I lost all sanity. Thankfully my husband found it while I was sitting there sobbing and praying. I also took a pregnancy test this morning knowing it was most likely going to show negative because 6 days past ovulation is just too early but by some thought I imagined it may be a miracle on a very sad day. Of course it was negative but that was expected.
My basal body temperature, Ovulation Predictor Test and Fertility Monitor all indicate I ovulated yesterday. As long as my temperature remains elevated tomorrow I'll begin taking the 200mg oral progesterone at night.
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Riley EmberPrecious Baby so loved by Mommy, Daddy, Brother and 3 siblings. This precious baby was our little rainbow after a storm, our remaining ember of hope and an answer to prayer. On April 2, 2018 when I was 10w2d pregnant we learned our baby no longer had a heartbeat and was only measuring around 8 weeks. We believe this precious baby was a boy. He arrived in Heaven when his heart stopped at 8w4d on March 21, 2018. His body was delivered at 12w on April 14, 2018 @ 3:20PM. He was laid to rest April 16, 2016 about 3:40PM. Riley Ember, Ean Rigel and Willow Rayne are buried together and are in Heaven together with their other four siblings. Riley Ember will be forever loved and remembered. Archives
April 2019
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Remolding Clay
- Thoughts/Studies
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My Losses
- Why It’s Not “Just a Miscarriage”
- Ean Rigel (Blog)
- Riley Ember (Blog)
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Pictures (ONLY CLICK TABS IF YOU WANT TO SEE THEM. *Disclaimer: Images may be disturbing for some)
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- Pictures of Ean. He was not full term, he was 13w2d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing, he was born 13w6d.
- Pictures of Riley. He was 8w4d when his heart stopped and he stopped growing, and he was born at 12 weeks.
- Pics of Willow. She was 8w2d when her heart stopped and she stopped growing; she was born 10w6d.
- Never Forgotten Babies
- Praying For You
